Contradictions, doubts, & needing to understand who God actually is.
Q: Why do Christians read the Bible because there are infinite contradictions. My doubts in Jesus and God came with deeper studying of the Bible. I sought God literally with all my heart mind body and soul- every fiber of my being- and yet I got doubts and severe traumas instead. 13 “You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” Apparently not I!!!! I have the purest most loving sinless heart of everyone ive Ever known and much more devoted to Jesus/God than anyone so this has 100% nothing to do with sin or state of my heart etc. I’m more desperate than anyone ever could be to find TRUTH and for someone anyone to explain all these hundreds if not thousands of contradictions in the Bible. God seems like a tyrantical sadistic monster in the Bible and I truly don’t want to think that. I don’t want to lose faith and hate God but I’m already on that road. Someone explain all these contradictions and sadistic crazy scriptures about a God that seems lik...