Seeking Answers for basic Christian clarity
Q: I have been reading the Old Testament and it has made me feel very discouraged. 1) I understand that we can only be saved by Jesus, nothing we even do or think can save us. 2) I understood that we might not have free will, but we have free choice. 3) Reading verses where God sent evil spirits, or gave them permission to do harm or to lie, etc. I know that God is good and no evil comes from Him, but 4) I have all these conflicting thoughts and questions, I was under the impression the enemy could attack wherever he could get the opportunity, but if the enemy has to get permission from God before he can attack does it basically come from God? 5) I had a rough childhood, and like most people having health issues as well. I am still young, 6) I know that I don't even deserve the light of day, but 7) why did God make me? 8) What if I too take too long to change my ways and He gives me over to my fleshly desires and hardens my heart? How many chances do we get and do we really have fr...