Softened skeptic desiring church & God, w believing husband, seeks help answering young child's questions

Q: I have a concern & need help.

For YEARS I have been feeling the need of going to a church and get close to God. I have A LOT of doubts in my heart I feel skeptic, because of that I haven’t been in a church in so many years. I was raised in a latino catholic family ( like most of hispanic/latino culture) and i honestly never feel any connection to the religion, and I have very bad memories and experiences not directly with the church, but the people who practiced religion. I see a lot of stuff that doesn’t really match what they’re preaching.

 l’m 36 i have 4 kids total 20, 19 and 18 and because my “divorce” of religion they don’t believe in God or religion, not totally because of me, but because they decided to not believe or follow the religion (maybe because they see what i see as well). 

But lately the last year or so, my little 7 yo girl 7 has being asking me so many questions about God, who is God, if he take care of her, what do I know about him, and how to pray... and i don’t know how to start explaining her & since I have a lot of pain in my heart. 

How do I start? I feel spiritually lost. I feel like He’s calling me through her she’s very kind, sensible and humble. But out of nowhere she asked me about God, I try to tell her something but my heart feels so heavy. I feel like something is missing inside of me, something is calling me through my loved ones. I see Christians all over the place, my own husband is Christian and he never forced me but he always praying for me and our marriage. I feel like im maybe going crazy because I feel like I see a lot of signs everywhere , but I don’t know what to do or how to find what he wants from me. 😔

A: It makes sense to have no connection to empty religions, and to encounter bad behavior by folk there. Catholicism is devoid of God, it like all the other false religions just masqueade as one. Even the cults too that claim to be Christian. 

"What God wants from us" is to have a restored relationship to Him, and that only comes through faith/trust in Jesus ... so, Church isnt your first step, getting right with God, is. This short Gospel presentation (along with understanding the Essentials noted below) will help you settle that, today. 😊✨️ 

Once saved God will transform you, give you new and right desires, and you'll pursue them, because you love Him, are grateful and thankful to him. ❤️

Christians are to be in Church, if we love God, and Jesus our Savior [the true one revealed in Scripture, not the false one of false religions], then "we desire to be" among our brethren, (and serving God there, worshipping together, being a local community, and under the leader-shepherds guiding there [helping us live holy lives, counseling, teaching, etc] so we can become more like Christ). While your relationship with God is personal, and you are a individual, Christianity isnt a solo journey, it is lived out in a community. And the community has specific beliefs they hold to, that we live under and by. Not man made but revealed by God in Scripture. That's why it is so important to find one that actually teaches the truth, (as there's many false churches and false teachers and false so called Christian churches, denominations, sects and cults out there, you need to avoid), and many dont know how to find one. They dont know what to look for. Gone are the days of going into any church [protestant] and being among those teaching biblical orthodoxy. 

Here is a church search directory to help you find a solid church.

Here are faq young kids ask that can help you with answer convos. ✅️

And here are kids ver of the Essentials to teach 📖 them.

Here is the adult version of the Essentials, (good for you & your young adult kids too) 

As for your older kids this will be a good help! This answers faq and shares the Gospel, use along with these videos on Christianity ✝️ that can seed plant. Maybe watch the videos together at a planned family night meet up (since some are likely living elsewhere). And let your husband handle answering their questions, (even if he looks it up, and gets back to them).

These will be a good help as you get started on this journey. It is never to late to get started, so start now. 

This will also help for your own spiritual growth & bless you, and this will help answer many of your skeptic like questions, and are someone that believers ask too as they grow in the Faith. 

What matters most importantly is obeying the Gospel today, because tomorrow isnt promised. And all you need is to see & believe what's reasonable. The Essentials and Gospel explained here are enough to accomplish that. 😊 

The material here will be so helpful to you that you won't have doubts, cuz you've understood the core truths. You can confidently live out the Christian life because of it. 

If your husband is up for (beginning to be) being the spiritual leader in the home (and guiding your older kids too), he can start with those same materials (on this page). And just do his best, that's all God can ask for. My stepdad is timid but I saw him (after he got saved), teaching Sunday school, and he pushes through it, and does decently well. The material is already there to help your husband too 🙂, (hes not making it from scratch). So encourage him in a loving way to make a go of it, and praise him, and tigether thank God in prayer for his faithfulness 😊✨️. And with the young one, start a family Bible hour where he can teach her these things, (at her understanding level) and move on to other doctrines to know and of other biblical truths for her life as time goes on. 

As part of it, ya'll can also teach this to the young one, and these & these to the older ones [even if you share cuz theyre far, or yall add in zoom-face time for family time]. These are a bit more in depth on essentials and basic foundational truths they need to know. Read the verses along with it (click to read). That's important. They need to read the Word/Scriptures so they see and understand. 

As mom you can reinforce these truths when opportunities for a "God moment" arises in daily life. Timothy's grandmother and mother were praised in Scripture for raising him well in the Faith. And you will be a good godly influence on your children too. Give yourself grace, forgiveness and mercy, as God does, when you feel you lacked or messed up. It takes time to mature. And teaching that things to your kids is another encouragement and helps build them up too. 

God bless! 

2 Corinthians 13:14 

May the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ and the love of God and the fellowship of his holy spirit be with you now and forever more amen.